I am ashamed, I am only now training myself to accept failure and reinvent myself

Research is essence about exploring in highly uncertain environments, life is the same. I am ashamed that I did not seriously put intuitive ideas into objective reality, had them objectively tested by society. I used to be tormented by problems that have answers and standards, while lacking serious honing and reflection on my own essence. I am grateful that the PhD has made me more sound, more at ease, and continuously polishing myself, so that the originally unclear stubbornness in my heart gradually becomes clear and definite, gradually understanding myself better, knowing where my heart points, knowing what my own standards are for discerning things.

At this stage I also understand everyone around me better; it’s just that each person is at a different life frequency, so they have their own standards and attachments. It seems I can understand everyone...